#21: every four years

This was supposed to be published many days ago but it wasn't but anyway here's to the very special day:

HAPPY LEAP YEAR EVERYONE!

#20: incredibly close

Today during History we learned about the Cold War which happened from 1945 to 1991 and for 46 years everyone just couldn't stop fighting. Then Ms Heng talked about how the North Korea is an absolute communist country, how the people couldn't even get over the border of their country, how the guards would shoot people who attempted to climb over/get near the border and etc.

And it made me wonder, how can the NK government be so cruel? Doesn't he (or the bunch of inhuman people) have a heart to think about how much his people are suffering because his idea of communism is so perfect? Doesn't he see that his people NEED to get out of that damn place and get some fresher air? Doesn't he look into his soul and realize that MAYBE he shouldn't be so selfish and cage his people in some place that is almost like a prison? I mean really, NKoreans may be perfectly fine with this but that is only because they have been brainwashed so clean that they forgot how to live their lives in a normal way. They have gone through so much propaganda that they totally forgot how life was like (was there even a past life for them?) before their country turned so communish.

I pity them, I really do.

And I am very glad I wasn't born in that stinkin' place.

If I ever were in the state equivalent to theirs, I would have already killed myself.

Anyway I have been playing Draw Something recently and I must say it's a pretty good game and I have to thank my lovely dad for buying me 2 books (and I hope they are able to last me through my very pathetic life).

#19: extremely loud

So many things happened recently I have zero idea where to start from.

Saturday:

Trained all the way down to Bugis as early as 9.30am in the morning for Flag Day (in collaboration with Singapore Red Cross Society). And I must say, out of 1000 people, 998 of them are heart-fricken-less. Like seriously, wouldn't they feel the least GUILTY ignoring us? I don't care if it's 5 cents, 10 cents or even a dollar but at least ACKNOWLEDGE OUR DAMN EXISTENCE BY L O O K I N G AT US EVEN IF YOU DO NOT WISH TO DONATE.

Some people are just so engaged in their own world they wouldn't even bother to lift their head for a slight 10° to look at you. These people should just burn themselves and THEY CAN ALL GO TO HELL.

Anyway, Flag Day was by far the most tiring CIP I ever did. We (Jing and Vn) were initially allocated the National Library but we realized the traffic there was seriously too horrible for donations so we crossed over to Bugis Junction and......it wasn't any better. Passers-by just stared at us like we're aliens and walked away. How much more heartless can this society get? HAVE THEY LOST THEIR HUMANITY OH MY HOLY CHEESE but still there were some who were kind and generous enough to donate a friggin' $50 note (and Shaowei earned that). There's still a little hope for our ruthless state.

And to make this space a little less dull and boring............

PS: Happy Valentine's Day to all my luvlies!

#18: say good bye

DISCLAIMER: The following will be extremely gloomy.

Let's put this at the very front: we were not the ones who messed up this friendship, neither were we the ones who made things worse.

Before going to anyone else crying and showing that oh-so-pitiful face, can you, at the very least, create a story that is 90% similar to the original one? I honestly do not mind if you add a little spice in it (to make it look like we're the bad ones oh man) but please do not make up an ENTIRELY different story just to get sympathies from people who care.

And also please do not act like you're one poor soul and go round telling people how much YOU have suffered from us because clearly, all of us have the same amount of sufferings. You do not get the chance to say something different from us.

Oh here comes the ironic part. How much do you HATE people invading your privacy? A HELL LOT. And how much do people HATE someone invading their privacy? Oh well, it can't be compared to yours, can it? Let's take for example: you hate apples but yet when there's a choice of orange, you chose apple. I am deeply apologetic if you can't see the link here but this perfect example suits you very well.

Or maybe it's wrong for someone to invade your damn privacy but it's absolutely fiiiiiiiiiiine for you to invade someone else's privacy and to find something you shouldn't have known that sparked off everything. And for that, you do not get to have a say in anything now. You shall just keep your flippin' mouth shut and cry in one corner.

You may get your entire class of true friends to settle this for you but hate to break it to ya, they really ARE your true friends you should have befriended a year ago, and not wait till now. Maybe we (read: we) do not deserve to have a friend like you, maybe we're not good enough to have you around and you are better to have them as your backings, aren't you? No doubt you have apologized and did not ask for forgiveness but do criminals get freed by saying "Oh dear I'm so sorry for killing him/her but he/she truly deserved it. I am in no wrong." after killing someone? No. This matter may not be as serious as a murder case but dude, you see the point here? Yes, you can't expect us to just go all "Ok we'll let this matter rest." just by hearing you say a "I am so sorry etc etc etc." after all that you have done.

Everyone says something they shouldn't have said when they are angry but in your case, it's really too much and you really have overstepped your boundary. How could you bring yourself SO LOW to the point of accusing someone of something they haven't done? You may have been used to all this accusations but mind you, WE ARE NOT YOU. And never will be you btw. Thanks to whatever you have said – intentionally or not – we are receiving countless of cusses from all over the world. Aren't you happy now? You should be. You achieved your goal. And for all we know, it's a long, long, long-term goal.

Last point to add: you mentioned that we will never be able to feel how you have felt BUT DUDE DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE ARE FEELING ALL SO WONDERFULLY GREAT AFTER WHAT HAD HAPPENED? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE WANTED ALL THIS? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK BY FABRICATING A BRAND NEW FANTASTICALLY THOUGHT-OF STORY YOU CAN BRING US OCEAN-DEEP DOWN? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK ALL THIS CAN BE FORGOTTEN AND FORGIVEN JUST BY SHOWING US HOW REMORSEFUL YOU ARE NOW? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE ARE DOOMED AFTER DITCHING YOU? DO YOU HONESTLY FEEL PROUD AND ALL AFTER TELLING PEOPLE HOW PATHETIC YOU ARE RIGHT NOW RIGHT HERE RIGHT THIS MOMENT AND HAVE THEM PITY YOU LIKE SOME DOG? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK THE WHOLE WORLD WILL THINK OF US AS VILLAINS JUST BY WHAT YOU SAY?

If yes, then I am so sorry to say but you are terribly wrong. No matter how harsh, how bitchy, how flippin' your words are right now, they do not matter as much as they used to. Whatever you are about to say / do, it will create zero (repeat: ZERO) negative impact on us.

You may now join your new friends and bitch / backstab / say whatever you like and/or love about us, or have your new circle of friends punch / slap / kick / kill us all, for we do not care anymore.