#49: happyVIrthday

OK the title says it all

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAKNAE LEE SEUNGHYUN AKA SEUNGRI AKA VI(CTORY) ^^v

There's nothing much to document recently except that I've been going back to school for band and for orientation preparation and it's just so tiring and ew because holidays are meant for relaxation and definitely not the time to worry for ANYTHING.

In any case, life's pretty good cos I'm going off in < a month and Xmas is 13 days awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

Bye bye

#48: rolling stones

#1: It's December

#2: Year 1 has finally ended
#3: I made it through Year 1

#4: I cleared promos (unbelievable)

#5: Going on a cruise next year with the famz + gramma

#6: Weather's been good the past few days

#7: Attended RSSB's final concert with Mr Tan as the Resident Conductor

#8: Christmas in 20 days * * * * * * * * * 

I wanted to make a list of 10 but I couldn't think of anything else that makes me happy

Happy December and.....................bye

(edit)

I got bored so I started reading my previous entries - do people do that or is it just me because I thought it was like I was stalking myself and it felt kinda weird and creepy - and honestly I was quite impressed with myself. How the hell was I able to express myself so well and so fluently I mean like whoa my inner thoughts and feelings must have flowed really well last time.

Right now my mind is just blank and everything that I thought of a minute ago is buried deep under some shit inside my brain, albeit bulbs are flashing like hands waving frantically in front of me.

Anyway recently, I started...............playing Maple again (insert inordinate amount of lol) but that's only because I was (still am) dead bored. Actually my Maple craze rekindled back in June during the holidays and that was when I t o t a l l y neglected my studies and that was how I got really darn shit results I almost wanted to give up on life loljk not that serious but it was so depressing because JC is a bullet train equivalent. But when school started I stopped playing and did not exactly start studying because I was kinda lagging already and every day was just "I'm so tired I'm leaving it to tomorrow" but tomorrow never came.

But now that it's the holidays (again) I decided to play again cos there's a new job (Kanna) which is damn sick like whooooooaaaaaaaaa

Okay on a serious note I really should start studying soon otherwise everything's gonna pile up to as high as Mount Everest (just kiddin') ugh why must IJ have Homecoming exams I mean like who the hell sits for exams for HOMECOMING IT'S FLIPPIN' HOMECOMING SHOULDN'T WE DO SOMETHING MORE FUN AND EXCITING TO WELCOME A NEW YEAR OF HELL AND MORE HELL

As cool as it sounds - Homecoming Formative Assessment(s) - it's definitely not cool >8-(

#47: colored face

just thought maybe today had been an eventful one and I'd write it down and perhaps another way for me to procrastinate while I have my pw due in a few hours' time and also chem/math/phys tutorials to complete

(insert miseries)

so first of all I committed bravery today

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by watching the conjuring with jing at noon

I think of it as a brave act because considering it's the (lunar) ghost month and all along I've been a wimp when it comes to ghost movies and since last night I've been picturing the scenes (of myself while watching the movie)

but all the worrying went down the drain cos the movie wasn't as scary as I thought it'd be and the only time I let out a (soft) scream was when the ghost appeared on top of the cupboard and pounced onto one of the daughters (Andrea if I'm not wrong) and surprisingly I kept my eyes wide open throughout (ok 98%) the entire screening

the show was really good though the progression of it was a little slow

+ I'm like totally in love with Lorraine (maybe Ed as well) Warren like whoa she's soooOOOOOOOoooOOoOooOOo cool I almost couldn't take my eyes off her

but in fairness the entire cast for the conjuring are just wonderful and by wonderful I meant looks + acting skills

and I really hate how the makeup artists drew the haunting effects SO WELL it crept the hell outta me like ewwwwww but the movie was really gre8 so it's a plus

anyway afterward we had lunch and walked home together and I watched lilo & stitch with my sister because she refused to watch horror movies with me (not that my heart could actually take more but just thought it'd be fun to watch our first horror film together)

guess she's the scared-ier one but when it comes to bug catching she's like my superhero and I'm not even kidding

to sum up, I actually had this entry mentally written while eating my papayas in the living room with spider-man showing right in front of my uninterested face while I let my thoughts go wild

#46: legendary guardians

took me some time to find the "create post" button hahaha did blogger revamp itself

anyway greetings to anyone reading this informal post and thank you for visiting this dying space

it's term 3 already - whoa time flies like shit I can still remember my first day in ij - and I'm still having doubts over the choice I made, so to speak because jc isn't really my cup of tea and I probably would say the same if I'd gone to poly haaaahahaha

I'm so lost for words I don't even know what or how to describe my life it's like so uninteresting yet interesting at times because I experience so much dramas in school

(why is it that everyone else seems to be having fun in their new school with their new friends while I'm just here wallowing in despair sulking in misery and regretting every step I take)

on the plus side..................I would like to applaud myself for reviving this blog although no one probably blogs now I mean it's already 2013 most people should probably be documenting their lives in some kind of futuristic device

ok this entry should be able to last for another 6 to 12 months

till then good bye x

#45:

Because I haven't actually found the motivation to do any of the holiday assignment, I came here to write about OAC which ended last Saturday. Another reason why I'm still updating this is because I reckon someone may happen to enter this page and realize how horrible I am as a writer and.........just go away.

That wasn't funny but in all seriousness I just hope when I grow old and before I die I have something to look back to. And that is this uninteresting space that has little or no pictures at all because I forgot the beauty of an iPhone 5 - Panorama effect and all. In any case, I sincerely hope that anyone reading this won't die of boredom or overdose of words or excessive usage of the same word aka die because of my lousily limited vocab that I'm currently working on. 

I really need to expand my vocab list otherwise I sound pretty much like a loser. 

Anyway, Day 1 of OAC @ Desaru/Kota Tinggi:

I thank my dad for waking up at 5.30am to drive me to school because I probably would have fainted carrying all those heavy bulky fat ugly bags that contained nothing but my apparels + water bottles + utensils + torch light + pens. Anyway we waited for the longest hour before setting off for the customs...

...starting to think I can't link my thoughts well/link my sentences well as well so till then, good bye.

#44: new school

Here's an attempt - which will probably fail - in trying to write about my new life, as the title speaks, and as I try to complete my Chem homework which is an utter disgust because I just can't get the right answer.

Anyway school has started and as crazy as it may sound, I think I'm adapting well in IJC.

Day 1 of IJC Orientation 2013: Asterismos
Kinda psyched because I was going to a new school/meet new friends/walk a new direction to a new school to meet my new friends, some of whom I'll probably spend my next 1.5 years with closely. And then I thought I was gonna get lost because IJ was pretty much bigger than RSS but thankfully I bumped into Andrew, Annessa, Melvin and Rhynade. Then we almost sank into depression after knowing we were all allocated to different groups (aka STAR) - I was in Alphecca while Andrew + Mel were in Altair, Rhy in Atlas and poor Annessa was all alone in Salaeno (and also a loner in Sagittarius but she has friends now). Then I realized Jingwen was also in Alphecca so I felt a little better. And for the rest of the day I just spent it with Jingwen and I swear we were like LONERS (this is weird because technically only loner without an "s" exists). It's like no one wanted to be our friends HAHAHAHA WE EVEN THOUGHT BECAUSE WE WERE FROM RSS AND THAT WAS WHY NOBODY WANTED TO TALK TO US/BEFRIEND US.

Oh and there was this really dull and dry and uninterestingly LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG talk by some KPs early in the morning which almost killed us all.

Day 2 of Orientation
Not exactly thankful for the weekends because I didn't have much sleep to catch up on but as I type this I'm starting to doubt all the decisions I've made in my life ie. Why am I not sleeping earlier the night before?

That question is only applicable on school days, by the way.

We explored around the school (honestly I still don't know where's where) and attended some ~exposure~ lectures which I think wasn't of much help in helping me to decide which subject combination to take. Mass Dance was really fun although I don't have a thing for dancing but IJ's MD was truly good, I must say.

Day 3 of Orientation
We had even more talks than before in the morning before proceeding to Amazing Race P1 which was so-so imo. And then we listened to more lectures before learning how to sing the school song (still don't know how to though). Then towards the end of the day we were given time to buy the school uniform and I only bought 3 skirts and no shirts. And the next day I conveniently exchanged my skirts for 3 shirts because I thought I would need more shirts than skirts. And I still haven't worn any of the shirts I bought. So now I'm thinking if I had wasted my money...or maybe not.

Day 4 of Orientation
Talks like "Your Social and Mental Well Being" should NEVER exist.

Amazing Race P2 was SO much better than P1. Maybe because our group was better bonded after spending 3 days together. Oh and there was also a CCA concert that was (insert appropriate word). I don't wna hurt anyone.

Day 5 of Orientation
I thought I would die because the day started off with HOM workshop and that was THE most boring thing ever invented but I was wrong. The "workshop" was surprisingly engaging although I still find HOM a little......not very helpful.

Part of the day was spent learning the performance item for campfire later that night and I'm proud to say I belong to the Gay Group. The Gay Dance was one of the best dances I've ever danced. Not that I've learned a lot of dances but yeah out of the many dances I've seen/learned, Gay Dance is one of the better ones.

Campfire was REALLY A BLAST though we didn't have an actual fire because it was raining that evening but the fake fire was enough to make us all go HIGH HIGH HIGH

AND AFTER PARTY WAS THE MOST FANTASTIC THING THROUGHOUT THE 5-DAY ORIENTATION WOOHOO I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT NIGHT WHEN I WENT ALMOST INSANE AND ALMOST OVER MY BOUNDARY

It was super cool.

YES AND AQUILA WAS THE CHAMPION HOUSE FOR ORIENTATION 2013 WHOOPAAAAQUILAAAA

And then Orientation was over and for the next 3 weeks or so we had lectures and lectures and more lectures. Oh yes and we were split from our STARs to our CGs and I'm pretty glad I'm in 1312D (together with Andrew hahaha).

And during OAC we'll be split again from our CGs to our STARs and after OAC everything/everyone will be back to their CGs and only CGs.

Happy March and here's to our everlasting friendship, Alphecca + 1312D!

#43: crayon

Now that the worst is over, it's time to start planning for my future like what I wanna do when I grow up. Ok just kidding, that is a little too early. But in all seriousness, if I were to get into JC then here comes the repetitive insane routine of waking up at 6.30am and CCA and NAPFA and everything else that I dreaded most when I was in Riverside. What's most frightening is that I'm already very used to this relaxed and slackish life so much so that I can't foresee myself working hard again. It's hard to adjust my mindset back to how it was a year ago.

Anyway last week, my family went to Macau not to gamble but...I don't exactly know why either but my guess is that because we went there before so my dad decided to go again. I was kinda psyched that we're taking a 6am flight 'cause I'd be able to catch the sunrise but it was after the sun's up that I realized I was sitting at the wrong side of the plane. I forgot that the sun rises from the east and not the west. Either way I still managed to see clouds that looked like mountains/marshmallows/cottons/huggable bears. Not bears but something like that.

We spent 2.5 days in Macau before taking the ferry to Shenzhen, China. The Venetian that we stayed at was really first-class. Not even kidding when I say my entire bedroom can be fitted into the toilet. It. Was. THAT. HUGE. All in all, I think the whole suite is thrice the size of my bedroom. How incredible.

It was a first. I mean me going to China. I've never wanted to go China because of the rumors I heard - toilets without doors ha ha ha ha ha but that wasn't the case although most people they were really barbaric and uncivilized. But what I really like about China is the cars are left-hand driven. I've always wanted to go somewhere where the drivers drive on the left instead of the right because I think it's really really really really darn cool. Then again, the drivers there don't exactly follow road laws and they just honk at other drivers for no valid reasons. And pedestrians can still cross the road even when a speeding car is just 3 meters away from them. I don't get what's in their head, really.

On a side note, we visited my dad's friends (or suppliers/business partners) and I can safely conclude that not all Chinese are unfriendly people who look down on people who speak poor Chinese like me. I really like them especially Weiming (my dad's friend) and Xiaocheng (my dad's friend's daughter who is friggin' adorable and bright and brilliant).

We headed over to Hong Kong via car after staying 2 days in Shenzhen. Oh yes although the toilets have doors (at least, for the place I stayed at), the flushing system is horrible. Anyway the ride from our China hotel to InterContinental HK was 2.5 hours which meant that I held my pee from China to HK for 2.5 hours. It really almost exploded.

HK was really like a shopping paradise (Ladies' Market was +8467578165138456) and I never knew my dad's bargaining skills greatly surpassed mine a million times.

xx

#42: you're my heart heart heart heart

TOMORROW IS INDEED THE MOST WORRYING DAY OF MY LIFE.

For now.

My thoughts my feelings my emotions my heart my brain my intestines my lungs my kidneys my liver my every other internal organ are all jumbled up. There's like a mini war inside of me. Like any other war, bullets are fired at every direction and spears are thrown at empty spaces and arrows are targeted at human heads and bodies are laid all over. And blood oozing out to flood the entire area.

I am freaking out so much I don't seem to be making sense. I can't bring myself to think of what's gonna happen but I just keep picturing any possible scene that may be close to reality.

What. Did. I. Just. Say.

In other news, 2012 is officially over (like a closed case and its file is kept inside the cupboard already). It was really a tough year, with so many ups and downs and this and that (and even breakups between close people) but all in all, I think it was one of the best years I've ever lived. Can't really define "best years" because I can't remember what happened years ago. Anyway as I was saying, 2012 was truly a memorable year filled with happiness and unnecessarily overflowing stress (is that how you describe stress?). I'm just glad I made it through everything although I still feel the same. I mean some people always say, "Having gone through blah blah blah, I think I'm a changed person and my thoughts are now more mature than before." etc but I still......feel the same. Completely unchanged.

So yes I hereby gather all my strength and pray to the mighty ones above to shower me with bravery so that I can face tomorrow like any other ordinary day.

Happy 2013 everyone!