#41: blues

Laura and Tommy were lovers.

Tell Laura I love her.

Tell Laura I need her.

Oh I honestly find that song very lovely. 400 claps to Ray Peterson!

Anyway seconds ago, me and my sister were shopping at Mini In The Box and dang it that shop is REALLY SO GOOD IT PROBABLY HAS THE BEST DEALS ONLINE AND THE SHIPPING IS FREE AND THE PRICES ARE FLIPPIN' CHEAP THAT IT'S A LITTLE HARD TO IMAGINE, MUCH LESS BELIEVE. So we practically added everything to the cart and......I won't allow myself to feel the pain and guilt because I think it's stupid since everything is paid for already so I hope quality erases all emotions I'm experiencing right now except happiness.

I think recently all my emotions are heightened or maybe it's just too much Vampire Diaries.

Speaking of which, I really hate how the Damon-Elena/Stefan-Elena relationship is progressing. It is a tremendous torture to see Damon and Elena make out - less romance-ish and more sex-ish. I can't take it. IT'S JUST TOO MUCH IT'S LIKE ELENA JUST DITCHED SOMEONE GOOD FOR SOMEONE NOT-SO-GOOD. Not sayin' Damon's bad (heck he's hell sexy) but Elena should really feel Stefan's dead-undead heart. Every time I see how Stefan is depressed over his inevitable breakup, I cry a little inside. And each time, the cry just increases until my heart explodes into millions of bloody pieces.

Ok I was just joking.

Tell Laura not to cry.

My love for her will never die.

#40: big bang

18 days to Xmas THIS IS GETTING A LITTLE TENSING-LY INTERESTING

2 years ago when I got my first BlackBerry, I (kind of) swore to myself I'd never get an iPhone.

1 year ago when the white iPhone was released, I was like: If I ever get an iPhone, it'd be a white one.

NOW, I've been proven wrong myself - quite terribly.


Courtesy of: Google

So right now I'm stuck with this phone. Honestly, there was a tinge of regret when I first got it but well there's nothing much I can do besides living with it.

Another thing I was SO sure that I wouldn't be involved in was Kpop. BUT I, ONCE AGAIN, PROVED MYSELF ENTIRELY WRONG. On the other hand I'm not all into Kpop. Just one particular group that stood out imo - Big Bang. Initially it was just Taeyang and his Wedding Dress song and I ignored the rest of them (ha ha ha). Then I started watching Running Man (I say, my life is a lil weird ever since October.) and that was when I found out more about Big Bang. Technically speaking, the others who existed in that group since 2006. And then everything just went BAM and I found my new love.

There's just this thing about them that makes them........special. Like they can basically hold a concert with 10 over thousand of fans in just singlets and it is still perfect (almost, maybe 99.9%). That being said, their fashion sense and everything is still #1.

Yeah so recently I've been spending my (after)work time watching videos on Big Bang HA HA HA HA I AM NOT MYSELF I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY

Just in case I really lose myself............I've been working at my dad's office and it's not really a good idea but at least I get paid - decently.

PS: BIG BANG GOT ARTIST OF THE YEAR @ MAMA 2012 WOOOOOHOOOOOP MY LIFE IS COMPLETED X

Happy December!

#39: happening

2 WEEKS INTO THE VERY HIGHLY ANTICIPATED 'O' LEVEL AND ALL IS ABOUT TO END. That is, in another 2 weeks' time but right now all is okay.

HAPPY NOVEMBER EVERYONE!

WARNING: The following may or may not spark your interest because it's all about The Vampire Diaries.

Besides the O's, the next big thing in my life is the premiere of The Vampire Diaries Season 4 and I've been counting down to it since forever. Season 4 started off REALLY well, with Elena becoming a vampire (the transition was horrible). A doppelgänger vampire to be more accurate who can only drink blood fresh from the veins and nothing else works as best as that, not even blood bags or the bunny diets Stefan survived on.

Then a new vampire hunter appeared out of nowhere (damn I miss Alaric so much) and he's pretty much tasked (with his life I think at stake) to kill the entire vampire species AND THAT MEANS AN END TO THE SALVATORE BROTHERS' LIVES AND THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN. Or at least, not in my vicinity. I mean what will TVD become without vampires, right? So yes, the new vampire hunter aka Connor Jordan will never be able to accomplish his life mission haaaaaa I'm rejoicing.

But holy hell he's goddamn strong, so strong that he can break the steel bar with his arms and kill one of Klaus' hybrids. Kudos to Connor because he will die a horrible death if Klaus finds out he killed one of his hybrids, considering now that Klaus can no longer mass produce hybrids because Elena has officially become Vampire Elena.

Whatever the case, this new season definitely is much more intense and more cliffhanger-ish than any other season and this entry is turning into something not about my life but who cares.

PS: I really desperately hope Klaus uncovers the cure to vampirism because seeing Elena's heightened guilt for all the people she almost killed because she couldn't really control her bloodlust is beyond torturing.

#38: to glory

Happy September!

The one-week break I've been waiting since the start of Term 3 has finally arrived at my doorstep but good lord so many things have to be done within 7 days (which is, by the way, a little too demanding) and Prelim 2 is just rrrrround the corner and that's a bad thing because my results from Prelim 1 showed nothing but absence of success. I am drowning in a pool of failures. And I'm probably writing all this in an empty space with no one reading and/or witnessing but it's okay because my heart is sinking at a rate so fast I'm afraid if I don't unload the burden it's carrying it may end up in the abyss.

So yesterday was the last day of Term 3 and by celebrating Teachers' Day on the last day of school is, perhaps, the best way to end the school term. BUT THE SADDEST THING WAS MS HENG WAS UNWELL AND SO SHE DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL AND DAMMIT THAT WAS THE LAST TEACHERS' DAY FOR HER AS WELL AS FOR US TO CELEBRATE IT FOR HER. HOW MUCH MORE CRUEL CAN LIFE GET I MEAN IT WAS SO UNFAIR SHE HAD TO FALL SICK ON A DAY THAT SIGNIFIED A LOT TO HER AS AN EDUCATOR. She spent that special day moping at home, someone tell me what this is. It was really nice, though, that our class (biggest thanks to Krystal for her mega creativity) made huge cards with handwritten messages for every teacher who taught us including Mr. Alvin (!!!!!!!!).

Then after school, we (Annessa Gekkhee Jiajing Jiayin Krystal Vianne Rhynade Xiaoyun (who left us halfway) and I) went to CWP for lunch before meeting the rest (Aaron Benedict Congren Hongze Pangyong Wenjun Yeongjian Yihong) and going down to East Coast Park to cycle/roller-blade/celebrate Jiayin's birthday. And then because I haven't roller-bladed in my entire life (HAHAHAHAHAHA) I decided to rent a bike and poor Chong had to accompany me although I think she wanted to blade very badly SO CHONG IF YOU'RE READING THIS - I reckon no - I AM SO SORRY AGAIN. Anyway then we followed Ben CR PY WJ because they seemed to know the route better than we do and I swear my life was being jeopardized a gazillion times by 2 idiots (CR & WJ) who kept trying to swerve their damn bikes toward mine. But I gained pretty much valuable information so I think it was worth it and it was good to see the other side of PY and Ben although they didn't show much, still.

Anyway I think we cycled till part H (which was 5km from where we started off according to Pangyong) before riding back to the rental shop. Then I borrowed Vianne's roller-blades and tried blading for the FIRST time in 16 years and I must say it was pretty thrilling and funny because every time I was about to fall I'd scream "JIAYIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!" and she'd be like: "Didn't I tell you to bend your body?!?!!!" I swear she sounded very much like a coach.

Then I decided to blade on my own and.................I fell. And guess what - kind Aaron decided to help me up but I screamed-asked him how the hell do I stand up with the blades on and he fell to the ground and demonstrated once to me how to get up. I mean how much more foolish can that guy get to fall intentionally.

So yesterday was quite a splendid day spent with 4/6 whoooooooooooop all of them are such lovely people I can't bear to part with any of them but Graduation Day is just a few weeks away and as much as I want to leave my school (because there are so many ridiculous people around and their presence is just weird), I hope 4/6 will always be united foreeeeeeeever.

#37: behind the sunglasses

HIATUS

Be right back soon.

#36: periodically

Taking a brrrrrrrrreak from whatever I was doing (Math prelim papers) and decided to come here to write a post about how happy I am now that the first week of Term 3 is down aka 17 more days to Prelim 1 and a few more months to O Level............bummer.

I am totally drained just from the first week of school alone. We either have mock papers to do or mock exams to sit for and it's the same almost everyday. Not to mention the extended hours of Focus Study which is a bloody killer. Particularly for AMath. Sometimes I wish I had dropped everything and go back to when life was so much simpler that everyday when I wake up, the first I do was to play the Gameboy (the very first version) then have McDonald's Big Breakfast and watch one thousand episodes of Teletubbies (HAHAHA MY FAVORITE IS STILL PO) then take a short nap and wake up playing the Gameboy again.

Oooooooo how I miss my childhood ☺

Anyway, I'm extremely glad that Week 1 is over and Monday's a holiday whoooooooaaaa I've never felt so happy in a long time (happiness-deprived kid).

Happy July everyone!

#35: fabrics

1 more week left of vacation and it's the start of school hoorah!!!!!!!!

OK that was a frail attempt in trying to make myself LOOK like I actually anticipate the return of the most diabolical cycle of going to school (to study, what else?) e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y.

Anyway, that aside, I kinda like how ~free~ and ~slack~ my holidays are (or were, for that matter). Here's what happened last week:

Monday:
I went to my dad's office because I was born to do so. I was made to do so. I was forced to do so. Because he is my dad and it stinks to have a father who owns a office like his own (it IS his own anyway) and he gets to command me around like I'm his little dog. Speaking of which, I've just decided, this morning, that in the near future I will probably just buy a dog and we shall be comp4nions4lif3.

I digressed.

I think I tried a few questions of Chem and Phys but gave up because my textbook was at home (second out of a bajillion reasons to why I hate coming to his office).

Tuesday:
My sister was supposed to report to SIM for her University enrollment (seriously, it strikes me so hard HOW THE HELL DID SHE STUDY OR EVEN LIVE THE PAST 4 YEARS OF HER LIFE) so I volunteered to stay at home and because I was born to go to my dad's office every holiday I had to pay a price if I wanted to stay at home. And the price was a piece of cake - doing ALL the house chores.

BUT THE ODDS WERE IN MY FAVOR THAT DAY HAHAHAHAHA my mom decided to stay at home too so we shared the workload unequally and obviously she did more than me but who cares.

It was an unproductive day, by the way.

Wednesday:
Went to Lido with Elaine to catch Snow White & The Huntsman and oh my holy caloni CHRIS HEMSWORTH IS BEYOND HOTNESS NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE HOW SEXY AND BEASTY (only when he took his weapon to fight) HE WAS GOODNESS KRISTEN STEWART YOU LUCKY PIECE OF LUCKY SHIT. FIRST WAS ROBPAT AND NOW CHRIS UGH.

Hate to say this but RobPat has died a long time ago (not literally) so that doesn't count hmm....to think I actually went crazy over him because he sparkled under the sun ha ha ha ha.

Anyway the main point of the day's trip to town was there were so many hot guys AND I WAS SO LUCKY TO BE STANDING BESIDE ONE DURING THE TRAIN RIDE BACK TO WOODLANDS *-*

Thursday/Friday:
Back to my dad's office again and I did some work. By some, I mean really little. I am a screwed kid - extremely screwed.

On a plus note I found so much love for so many hot guys lately I just wish I can marry them all.

#34: tea bags

I got so bored so I found my way here, unknowingly. That is illogical but who cares. My life has been pretty depressing lately and by depressing, I mean absolutely depressing. If I were to live till the age of 80 (I still hope the world ends this year because I can no longer stand even one single bit of cruelty this world is giving me. I sound very much like a dying kid.), I swear upon myself that I will never bring the old me back to where I am today. So as I was saying, my life has been rather desolating and that is because I still haven't enjoyed a day of my already-1.5-weeks-gone holidays. This is NOT how a vacation should be but sadly, mine is.

Every day starts with 6.5-hour worth of supplementary classes (oh it's not even worthy) and ends with uncountable hours of extra self-study. But on the plus-y bright side, classes end this week so if I were to piece all together, I have approximately 2 weeks left of "holidays" which, obviously, is not enough for someone like me who needs to restore serious amount of lost sleeps. On the other hand, I need to stop eating like a drunken cow. I feel like I'm going to burst. Thank goodness I'm left with not more than $10 in my bag.

PS: I still haven't eaten from the centipede stall and I never will be going to. So the Malay noodles/rice stall is all I'm betting my life on.

#33: breaking the spell

This morning I woke up to an empty house and started watching Mirror Mirror and it was really good! I love Lily Collins so much she looked so beautiful in the film. Although Queen Clementianna aka Julia Roberts was an evil witch (not exactly a witch but yeah) I still think she was pretty........good-looking for someone her age.

OH AND PRINCE ANDREW AKA ARMIE HAMMER WAS SO CHARMING AND THEY (Lily and him) LOOKED SO CUTE TOGETHER *-*

Okay right now I have to worry for nothing but my studies and upcoming Physics SPA and oh lord just every other education-related thing.

It's the term vacation everyone but 2 more weeks of horror JUST 2 MORE WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Before I can truly enjoy myself hooray.

#32: wish I never had

Today will probably be one of the worst days of my life. Not that it's MT intensive Day 4 (actually I'm rather sad that intensive is coming to an end) but something else.

...........................................................................................................................................

I bought my usual plate of rice from Stall 4 this morning during recess (this feels like an essay-writing) and went back to our table and started eating. Just as I was about to bring the next mouthful of food into my mouth I saw a black long thing ON my plate IN my rice. I paused for a few seconds and stared at that thing.

I WAS DUMBFOUNDED.

IT WAS A FAGGIN' CENTIPEDE.

Centipedes: Arthropods belonging to the class Chilopoda of the subphylum Myriapoda. They are elongated metameric animals with one pair of legs per body segment. Accordingly, they can be found in soil and leaf litter, under stones and dead wood, and inside logs (and is MY plate of rice anything similar to the above mentioned? NO.). The first pair of maxillae form the lower lip, and bear short palps. The first pair of limbs stretch forward from the body to cover the remainder of the mouth. These limbs, or maxillipeds, end in sharp claws and include venom glands that help the animal to kill or paralyze its prey.

I wouldn't have been so freaked out if it was something else like maybe an ant or a small bug or a bunch of hair (okay this may be a little hyperbole because it's quite ghostly) BUT A CENTIPEDE - NEVER IN MY LIFE WILL I HAVE IMAGINED SEEING THAT CREATURE SO NEAR TO ME I'M GUESSING THE DISTANCE BETWEEN MY FACE AND IT WAS LESS THAN 30CM.

AT THAT INSTANCE I ALMOST NEEDED TO DIE AND I WAS SUBCONSCIOUSLY DRIFTING TO THE OTHER WORLD I SWEAR I WAS THERE FOR A BRIEF MOMENT AND EVEN FOR A BRIEF MOMENT IT FELT LIKE ETERNITY. 


RAGE AND ANGER AND FEAR AND DISGUST CONSUMED ME LIKE A HUNGRY DEMON. ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS WHAT THE HELL AND I WAS SCREAMING INSIDE MY HEAD LIKE A MAD WOMAN AND MY ORGANS INSIDE ME WERE ALL WRECKING HAVOC, LITERALLY. I WANTED SO BADLY TO JUST TEAR MYSELF APART.

Even the thought of it cringes me so much so that I just hope I had really died. I mean seriously, a centipede? A C E N T I P E D E? 


So I just cried silently for Lord, hoping that it was just a horrible dream or that my eyes were playing some tricks but.......just kidding I did not cry for Lord. I was in a state of shock so serious that I remained really silent even after knowing that what I was encountering was a venomous creature that could paralyze me (that is, if it bites) and bring me to my deathbed. But it was just humanly impossible to remain so calm. Come to think of it, I think I really did a pretty great job keeping my almost-exploding emotions within my body.

But I swore to myself I will never ever buy from that stall again because till now I'm still very much traumatized and it has been 6 hours already.

My life will never be the same again. I am gonna sulk in misery, wallow in despair and regret the existence of that monster. But look, isn't that monster powerful? He (I'm assuming he's a guy) had a size not bigger than an eraser but was able to inject so much horror into me.....I feel like a loser okay bye.

#31: trying to call home

After contemplating for a long time, I've finally decided to blog about my recent life. Just a word of caution: my life may sound as stupid as dull as boring as uninteresting as it already is. When was my life ever interesting, anyway, after I turned 16? Besides school, I basically live around nothing else.

On an extremely plus side NEXT WEEK IS THE LAST WEEK OF TERM 2 HURRRRRAH however there's still gonna be classes like almost everyday starting from an ungodly hour of 8am. So, what's life again? And did I mention Ms Tan booked us for 20 hours just for Physics? I have never imagined life like this. There isn't even any bright side left to look at and the next closest thing I can ever dread is MT intensive which begins in just about 1.5 days.

Now I am as close to death as I will be later.

Seriously, approximately 7 hours of C h i n e s e for 4 days (excluding Friday because we get to go home at 12.30pm on that day) straight is nothing but a deadly killer.

SPARE ME SOME MERCY ANYBODY SPARE ME FROM THIS MISERY

However I do not have to sit for Chinese O's so that's a good thing because I am spared from the horrible stress, at least. But doing mock papers for 4 days can also be very exhausting.

Anywaaaaaay I stayed at home with my sister today to watch Marvel's The Avengers and it was very very very good. Absolutely one of the best shows I've ever seen. I really like Robert Downey, Jr. aka Tony Stark/Iron Man - he's so cool and the way he flies up into the sky...so cute, so cute. Also Chris Evans aka Steve Rogers/Captain America may not be as hot as I thought but he surely is in the show!!!! Not forgetting the other Avengers as well - they make a pretty special team.

To celebrate the end of the week, Qianying Jing and I caught My Girlfriend Can See Ghosts yesterday. It was relatively good except my heart still skipped many beats upon seeing fake ghosts. But Lee Min-ki is rather good-looking.

I can't wait to watch Dark Shadows with either my sister tomorrow or the usual people on Monday (screw MT intensive I can never survive it)!!!

#30: before sunset

 Soaking in the sun

 Then I started playing with the curves in PS

Too real to be true

Every day unfolds a new chapter of misery I can no longer hold my brain is dying.

#29: castle in the sky

I AM FINALLY SIXTEEN WHOOP!!!!!

A part of me feels more liberal than before and more......grown up. 


Anyway today was a marvelous day spent with my family I love them just so much. We woke up at 11am and my dad drove us all the way to Marina Bay Sands for the Titanic: The Artifact Exhibition because I wanted to go so badly.

So we queued for the longest hour (for the tix and entering the museum).

To be very honest, the exhibits weren't that spectacular BUT THERE'S THIS GUY IN FRONT OF ME WHO WAS SO HANDSOME BOTH ME AND MY SISTER COULDN'T TAKE OUR EYES OFF HIM (he's Asian and has a girlfriend dammit) HAHAHA

OK the pictures shall do some (which btw is very little) talking:

Entrance Ticket

Page 1 of Boarding Pass

Page 2 of Boarding Pass - Registered under Miss Berthe A. Mayné (aka Mrs. de Villiers)

PS: Mr. Quigg Baxter wasn't found (according to the ship's records)

Dinner at Hide Yamamoto

French Chicken that was extraordinarily yummy

First EVER Lamb Rack that I love

Chocolate Truffle from Swissbake

Happy Birthday to me (so gay hahahaha)

I really would like to thank my family for making me feel so loved :') and of course everyone else who has wished me YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST x

#28: us against the world

Today's sunset (Take #1)

(Take #2)

My lovely French Horn mates ❤

#27: twining sides

He is utterly hot *-*

So is he *-*

SALVATORE BROTHERS WAY TO GO WHOOP!!!!!

#26: charming asia

14th and 16th April will probably be the best days of my life so far. Until something else replaces these 2 days shall remain as amazing are they are.

Last Saturday was the last performance for my cohort and damn that day was just too wonderful NO WORDS CAN SAY HOW MUCH WE'VE DONE THE SCHOOL AND OUR CCA PROUD. Like for example, band. I mean I have so much to say to every single one in band especially Mr Tan - he truly is a man of respect and excellence. I honestly hope he sees this - but I just couldn't generate my thoughts properly. Everything was just zooming and running wild in my head.

It all goes back to when I was in Sec 1 when I really disliked (hate is too strong a word) band because Mr Tan was too creepy and fierce but not until this year I realized how much band had played a significantly huge role in my life. If not for band I think I wouldn't have survived these 4 (or 3.5) years and met really amazing and lovely band mates. I never, not once in my 4 years, knew band would do me SO MUCH good. More than good actually.

How very true Mr Tan's words are whenever he said band people are special. Indeed, we're special because we're the ONLY CCA with 3 practices per week. But that's only a minor part. The moment we've stepped into band we're part of this one big family and till the day we die, we still remain as one. It feels so incredible playing music together, getting little scoldings from Mr Tan which will ultimately turn us into better beings (magically), running together, camping together, having gone to competitions/performances together, going through EVERYTHING together.

It just feels perfect to be in this band. Our very own band.

However, as cliché as it may sound, all good things come to an end.

Band Graduation Day was on Monday and damn was that day so emotional for all of us. It hurts to leave the others still in band, to leave the teachers-in-charge, to leave the French Horn section (Angeline, Batrisyia and Kevin), to leave Mr Tan and to leave everything that's in/part of the band. I am stabbing myself for dreading to go to band previously.

Life without band is so hopeless. It makes my life feel so empty and sad and........uncomfortable. After spending 3.5 to 4 years in band it is just too quick and sudden that we're leaving. Or we have left.

I NEED MORE TIME I REALLY NEED MORE TIME IN BAND I NEED TO HAVE EVERYTHING REPLAYED AGAIN FROM 2009 AND LET IT RUN LIKE A BROKEN RECORD

I AM JUST NOT READY TO LEAVE OUR BAND

.......

Just not ready to come back to reality and face the cruelty of it.

Anyway I really want to thank every single soul in band because you guys made me feel so blessed to have you all around. All of you are just the best thing in my life. BEST THING IN MY LIFE - SOMETHING I WILL NEVER TRADE FOR EVEN IF I'M OFFERED A BAJILLION DOLLARS. You guys are the loveliest people I will ever meet and it's just too impossible to forget any one of you.

Thank you for fixing an incredible piece of memory in my life.

Right now, I'm slowly decomposing to bits and pieces of remnants because I'm too sad.

Twinging in sadness x

#25: through the looking glass

HAPPY APRIL EVERYONE!

Here's to a blissful month ✌

#24: last embrace

What is about to come your way may be something extremely corny and cheesy and romantic. If you can't take any of those, you may want to find your way out now.

And here's the story of a girl called X.

I have a friend called X.

I met X 3 years ago. Back then, X was an entirely different person as she is now. She wore the most outdated spectacles, with the ugliest hairstyle anyone would have asked for. From the first look of her, she's someone whom you never thought you would be friends with. The number of times I've spoken with her was countable - barely 10. Or 20.

Me and X were in the same class 2 years ago. This time, I think the connection between us got better and we spoke with each other for more times than we did 3 years ago. Although we were not that close yet, she was still quite a bubbly person.

1 year ago, we were in the same class again and X was my desk mate. I didn't know what or how to feel for we were still not that close yet. But thankfully for all the school events that brought us closer, we became almost like one.

Now, we are still desk mates, but even better desk mates. I really love how we can laugh even at the most unfunny joke, how we can read each other's mind like as if we have some psychic powers in us, how we have the same chemistry, how we can get crazy together and basically do almost everything together.

You know, it's like NOTHING IN THIS WORLD CAN WORD OUT HOW I FEEL.

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING

I wasn't myself again today, for the bajillionth time. That being said, she didn't ditch me but she tolerated the really nonsensical me (I blame her Mentos btw) and bore with it till the end of English class. And for that, I am really really really really grateful. Others would have just thrown me aside and let me rot in one corner but she chose to sit beside me and go crazy with me (or maybe because she didn't have a choice).

That's one out of a many many many things I love about X.

Saying "thank you" can no longer express my gratitude, my love, my everything for X because she has extended beyond a simple "thank you".

And my friend X, you are incredibly significant in my life.

Thank you very, very, very, very much, my lovely desk mate - Goh Jia Jing! ❤

#23: mad hatter

The week just passed too quickly. But anyway here's my summarized week:

Monday:

Camped at home for the entire day watching movies and doing some homework.

Tuesday:

Extra lessons from 8am - 12.30pm then there was band practice from 2pm - 5pm AND MS JACKSON (together with Mr Chris, Ms Heather and Ms Lim) CAME AND CONDUCTED OUR BAND HOLY MACARONI CHEESE CAKE

She was so lovely, so magnificent, so mysteriously magical. And she has successfully made it (not that she had to choose) into my list of "People I will never forget, at least not in the next half century".

Everyone should meet her.

Wednesday:

Extra lessons again from 8am - 12.30pm and then.............................my phone died even before I had lunch at Long John Silver's with Elaine and Vianne. I was so depressed at the time I didn't know what to do I felt like strangling myself slaughtering a thousand cows (which, by the way, are animals I love) kicking everyone walking past me shooting all the clouds in the sky.

THAT WAS HOW SAD HOW SCARED HOW FRIGHTENED I WAS

Not to forget, my security level went down 248925782457847128957129592404859478924753 times

But it turned out that it was just a dead battery which took 10 hours to undie its death. Ever since its "death", I've learned to treat my phone with more care ie. not letting it fall again although I just did 3 days ago.

Thursday:

Last day of our extra lessons and I was extremely grateful for that. I was so sick and tired of waking up at 7am every day during the holidays. It's not like I haven't had enough of 6am-rise-and-shines.

I hereby demand a longer break and by that I just mean waking up a lot later every day.

Friday:

Finally a day with a decent break although I didn't really make full use of it. Was I having another movie marathon? I think I was.

Saturday:

Home alone with my mom and my dad which was a relatively good thing for with them around my liberty was being cut down by a lot. That being said, my day still wasn't very productive though I completed most of my homework and speaking of which, I just remembered I haven't filed my Chemistry file (that was due quite some time ago).

Anyway we celebrated my gramma's birthday at Orchidville and cheese stick that place there is really too good and the few cute Chinese men there are beyond incredible.

Sunday:

Preparing myself for the diabolical cycle that starts tomorrow and also........................Focus Study.

I have to report to bed earlier tonight.

#22: storm to happen

Saturday:

I was mourning the loss of my sleep on a Saturday morning. I woke up at 6.30am (together with my sister) then we walked to school for the first time in 4 years. I could hardly ever believe that. The last sentence is a joke – there is nothing very unbelievable here.

It was R³ Day and our class requested beforehand that we would like to (again) be at the Collection Center (or Point or Place or whatever) instead of running through blocks and collecting stacks of newspapers/bags of unwanted clothes/sets of stuffed toys. And we got it. So while everyone set off to their blocks, we went to CWP to have breakfast whoopodoodle ☺

Then around 9am we walked back to school and started playing a game of Volleyball/Netball before the first truck arrived and the guys went to do the job while the girls.....continued with the game.

Then the second truck arrived.

And the girls went to help.

Then the third truck arrived.

Everyone went to help.

Then the fourth truck arrived.

Everyone was having fun already.

Then it started to rain.

But we still had fun until something terrible (not exactly) happened BUT DOOD OUR CLASS WAS SO UTTERLY BONDED AND LOVING AND HOLY CHEESE CAKE MACARONI CHICKEN PEA MUSHROOM CURRY SAUCE WE (not the entire class though) WAITED UNTIL ANNESSA JIAJING JIAYIN RHYNADE SHUYU VIANNE FINISHED WHATEVER THEY WERE DOING THEN WE LEFT THE SCHOOL.

If you were there you'd have gotten the hang of what happened. Something extremely unpleasant, for a start but who cares WE HAD SO MUCH FUN (❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤)

PS: Images deleted because they were too horrible. Not the people in it but the quality.

#21: every four years

This was supposed to be published many days ago but it wasn't but anyway here's to the very special day:

HAPPY LEAP YEAR EVERYONE!

#20: incredibly close

Today during History we learned about the Cold War which happened from 1945 to 1991 and for 46 years everyone just couldn't stop fighting. Then Ms Heng talked about how the North Korea is an absolute communist country, how the people couldn't even get over the border of their country, how the guards would shoot people who attempted to climb over/get near the border and etc.

And it made me wonder, how can the NK government be so cruel? Doesn't he (or the bunch of inhuman people) have a heart to think about how much his people are suffering because his idea of communism is so perfect? Doesn't he see that his people NEED to get out of that damn place and get some fresher air? Doesn't he look into his soul and realize that MAYBE he shouldn't be so selfish and cage his people in some place that is almost like a prison? I mean really, NKoreans may be perfectly fine with this but that is only because they have been brainwashed so clean that they forgot how to live their lives in a normal way. They have gone through so much propaganda that they totally forgot how life was like (was there even a past life for them?) before their country turned so communish.

I pity them, I really do.

And I am very glad I wasn't born in that stinkin' place.

If I ever were in the state equivalent to theirs, I would have already killed myself.

Anyway I have been playing Draw Something recently and I must say it's a pretty good game and I have to thank my lovely dad for buying me 2 books (and I hope they are able to last me through my very pathetic life).

#19: extremely loud

So many things happened recently I have zero idea where to start from.

Saturday:

Trained all the way down to Bugis as early as 9.30am in the morning for Flag Day (in collaboration with Singapore Red Cross Society). And I must say, out of 1000 people, 998 of them are heart-fricken-less. Like seriously, wouldn't they feel the least GUILTY ignoring us? I don't care if it's 5 cents, 10 cents or even a dollar but at least ACKNOWLEDGE OUR DAMN EXISTENCE BY L O O K I N G AT US EVEN IF YOU DO NOT WISH TO DONATE.

Some people are just so engaged in their own world they wouldn't even bother to lift their head for a slight 10° to look at you. These people should just burn themselves and THEY CAN ALL GO TO HELL.

Anyway, Flag Day was by far the most tiring CIP I ever did. We (Jing and Vn) were initially allocated the National Library but we realized the traffic there was seriously too horrible for donations so we crossed over to Bugis Junction and......it wasn't any better. Passers-by just stared at us like we're aliens and walked away. How much more heartless can this society get? HAVE THEY LOST THEIR HUMANITY OH MY HOLY CHEESE but still there were some who were kind and generous enough to donate a friggin' $50 note (and Shaowei earned that). There's still a little hope for our ruthless state.

And to make this space a little less dull and boring............

PS: Happy Valentine's Day to all my luvlies!

#18: say good bye

DISCLAIMER: The following will be extremely gloomy.

Let's put this at the very front: we were not the ones who messed up this friendship, neither were we the ones who made things worse.

Before going to anyone else crying and showing that oh-so-pitiful face, can you, at the very least, create a story that is 90% similar to the original one? I honestly do not mind if you add a little spice in it (to make it look like we're the bad ones oh man) but please do not make up an ENTIRELY different story just to get sympathies from people who care.

And also please do not act like you're one poor soul and go round telling people how much YOU have suffered from us because clearly, all of us have the same amount of sufferings. You do not get the chance to say something different from us.

Oh here comes the ironic part. How much do you HATE people invading your privacy? A HELL LOT. And how much do people HATE someone invading their privacy? Oh well, it can't be compared to yours, can it? Let's take for example: you hate apples but yet when there's a choice of orange, you chose apple. I am deeply apologetic if you can't see the link here but this perfect example suits you very well.

Or maybe it's wrong for someone to invade your damn privacy but it's absolutely fiiiiiiiiiiine for you to invade someone else's privacy and to find something you shouldn't have known that sparked off everything. And for that, you do not get to have a say in anything now. You shall just keep your flippin' mouth shut and cry in one corner.

You may get your entire class of true friends to settle this for you but hate to break it to ya, they really ARE your true friends you should have befriended a year ago, and not wait till now. Maybe we (read: we) do not deserve to have a friend like you, maybe we're not good enough to have you around and you are better to have them as your backings, aren't you? No doubt you have apologized and did not ask for forgiveness but do criminals get freed by saying "Oh dear I'm so sorry for killing him/her but he/she truly deserved it. I am in no wrong." after killing someone? No. This matter may not be as serious as a murder case but dude, you see the point here? Yes, you can't expect us to just go all "Ok we'll let this matter rest." just by hearing you say a "I am so sorry etc etc etc." after all that you have done.

Everyone says something they shouldn't have said when they are angry but in your case, it's really too much and you really have overstepped your boundary. How could you bring yourself SO LOW to the point of accusing someone of something they haven't done? You may have been used to all this accusations but mind you, WE ARE NOT YOU. And never will be you btw. Thanks to whatever you have said – intentionally or not – we are receiving countless of cusses from all over the world. Aren't you happy now? You should be. You achieved your goal. And for all we know, it's a long, long, long-term goal.

Last point to add: you mentioned that we will never be able to feel how you have felt BUT DUDE DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE ARE FEELING ALL SO WONDERFULLY GREAT AFTER WHAT HAD HAPPENED? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE WANTED ALL THIS? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK BY FABRICATING A BRAND NEW FANTASTICALLY THOUGHT-OF STORY YOU CAN BRING US OCEAN-DEEP DOWN? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK ALL THIS CAN BE FORGOTTEN AND FORGIVEN JUST BY SHOWING US HOW REMORSEFUL YOU ARE NOW? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK WE ARE DOOMED AFTER DITCHING YOU? DO YOU HONESTLY FEEL PROUD AND ALL AFTER TELLING PEOPLE HOW PATHETIC YOU ARE RIGHT NOW RIGHT HERE RIGHT THIS MOMENT AND HAVE THEM PITY YOU LIKE SOME DOG? DO YOU HONESTLY THINK THE WHOLE WORLD WILL THINK OF US AS VILLAINS JUST BY WHAT YOU SAY?

If yes, then I am so sorry to say but you are terribly wrong. No matter how harsh, how bitchy, how flippin' your words are right now, they do not matter as much as they used to. Whatever you are about to say / do, it will create zero (repeat: ZERO) negative impact on us.

You may now join your new friends and bitch / backstab / say whatever you like and/or love about us, or have your new circle of friends punch / slap / kick / kill us all, for we do not care anymore.

#17: just tonight

Like what the title reads, this entry shall solely be on what's happening right now.

Tonight, I read through a few people's blogs and every time I visit a new blog, I wonder: is life REALLY that bad for them? Why do I seem to have neglected so many of my friends' sad moments in life? Why do I seem to be enjoying life (not literally) while they sulk in misery? Why do I always pout over the smallest, tiniest and most little thing that is not even worth pouting? Why do I have to constantly remind myself that my life is horrible, my life is terrible, my life is worth nothing, my life is..........when there are others out there, whose lives are far worse than mine? Why am I failing as myself? Why oh why can't I see that my friend is suffering so much and there I am, doing nothing and being so annoying and a total nuisance to them?

Just hold on for a little second, and think: is life really that miserable for every one of us that we have to be so commentary on everything? Is life really that tough here in Singapore that we have to always remind ourselves to jump off the buildings? Is life really that meaningless to us that we have to STOP thinking about how the African kids are living their rightful lives? Do we really have to see that low of life, and think that maybe we shouldn't even be born for a start?

I don't know, I don't have any apparent answers for the above questions but if WE, people of a technologically-advanced, financially-stabled, medically-readied society with almost everything that is needed to operate our lives fully, are still not contented with OUR lives, does this mean that international beggars and people living in a less-developed country should just burn themselves to hell? No, obviously not.

Very true that we have all the rights to live the life that we want but considering that we are from countries that do not need to worry over things like, will there be rice for us tomorrow? Will there be water for me to drink tomorrow? Will I be able to live another day? Will I be able to see the next sunrise? Will I be able to go to school to study? Will I still be able to see my family when I come back later? Will I still be able to talk with my family 10 minutes later? All these simple things that we live by everyday, are things that the less fortunate ones experience but right now, even the MORE FORTUNATE ones are complaining about their daily lives.

Well, I do admit I ALWAYS complain even for the slightest thing, without even sparing a kind thought for the Africans (they are the only people I can think of when it comes to the less fortunate) who are, every second, fighting to live for another day while I can just go to school, study, see my friends, come home, study, sleep and ta-da, waking up to a brand new day without having to worry for anything.

I haven't really made any point but ah well, just saying.

#16: journey of wondrous flight

2 weeks ago was the last time we ever celebrate the success of the Secondary One Orientation Camp 2012. Those times we spent as a committee, all the fun, joy and laughter we had together, all the pains we had to take right down into our souls, and those wonderful memories we all shared, everything will be so pricelessly kept in my mind.

Day 1 (January 6 2012, Friday)

Let's start with me being late again. But this time I had a valid reason (I think). The entire camp didn't start off very well because there were quite many hiccups in the morning and Mdm Soh was really upset with us for some reasons and for that, I'd like to add that she was a total nuisance.

I honestly think she has ZERO rights to be unpleased with us because a) she was the one doing all the impromptu changes; b) she was also the one stirring all the hiccups; c) she was really being overly paranoid.

In conclusion, she should just remain in her office and drink a cup of tea with a tin of biscuits on her table.

As the day progressed, everything went almost back on track except for lunch which was terribly chaotic (that I have to admit) but then again, it wasn't ENTIRELY our fault. I mean really, do all teachers in our school have a grudge against our batch? Seriously if they do then they should just quit teaching and jump off the building because they are making life SO BLOODY HARD FOR US AND MIND THEM WE ARE ONLY 15-GOING-16 Y/O KIDS STILL IN THE VERY ROUGH PROCESS OF GROWING AND HOW COULD THEY MAKE LIFE SO MISERABLE FOR US

Either they are inhuman or they are just sickening peas.

Anyway whatever happened after lunch was relatively good, I'd say so +10 for us and -452348295724892985734 for the teachers. Screw them upside down inside out. If anyone of them is reading this: you suck balls.

Day 2 (January 7 2012, Saturday)

I am quite sad that my Saturday was gone like that (by that I mean waking up at 5am) BUT for the sake of the Secondary 1s and everyone else.......I will sacrifice.

Just kidding.

We managed to set up most of the things by 8am and I was freaking out because the last time I rose a flag was actually last year.

After morning assembly, we started the Mass Games (which started VERY badly) and I was running around the whole school finding groups to hand them their booklets which was e x t r e m e l y tiring. So I decided to wait by the bench outside the staff room for the groups to appear in front of me and that was when....................................the whole Weixiong's HOT! thing started and that was how I became his #1 fan. But he was a really really really nice guy :)

And I gotta say, Santhosh was so cute during the whole Orientation Camp. He was practically shadowing me wherever I go and I could always be like: "eh Santhosh, can you hel-" and he'd be like: "OH OK CAN!" So I'm very glad to have him as my partner.

There were many unpleasant things that happened in between (and I would LOVE to talk about but...) which was plain stupid. Stupid. Very stupid.

Campfire wasn't exactly a blast but I think the campers had sufficient fun and that was the whole point so yeah enough of the camp.

I had a terrible time recalling what happened 2 weeks ago.

So back to my current life:

I am hardly surviving even one day of school. There's like a HUGE change in my life that now, every time I'm in class, I always bring myself to sleep. And sleep. And more sleep. Everything is so dry and boring and everyday we have to sit through the vicious cycle of studying.

Then again, having said that, I am PROUD to say I have officially dropped Biology so now I am a proud Bio dropout. And while the students suffer the pain inflicted by Ms Tang (and under the negatively negative influence of "Your class is a very small class, a very privileged class"), I shall camp in the lab and enjoy the liberty I have given myself.

And to add on to my wonderful life (Gek I know you ARE reading this), I had PE with Pangyong last Friday and oh my holy macaroni cheese cake HE WAS SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHAHAHA but he is still yours, Gek, do not worry ;)

This week, we had a half-day (which was yesterday) to celebrate the faaaaaabulous 'O' Level results achieved by the previous batch of Sec 4s. I have no intention of giving a half-day to the next few batches of students.

So after school, we (Na and Lim) went to CWP for lunch and Lim came over to my house to collect an umbrella which I borrowed from Kua since very long ago and my mom thinks it's time that I return it to her because...................Chinese New Year is just around the small corner. Then we walked back to school to deliver that umbrella and 2 packets of Long John Silver's (that cost a bomb) and afterwards we (Lim and Kua) went to Tan's place to lepak and abuse her Instax.

Today was yet another boring day because 90 minutes of CHINESE was what kick-started my day. The school just reminded me of how splendid my life is. Did I mention that Mdm Shen changed both my and Tan's seats? Now we're like front-and-back and I honestly think Mdm Shen thinks that me and Tan are.......strangers and that is exactly why she separated the both of us from the rest but reunite us together. Strangely as it may sound, it is true. I can never concentrate in Chinese class ever again.

Tomorrow will be another half-day (2 half-days per week MY LIFE IS SERIOUSLY WONDERFUL) and here's to the long long long long CNY break I've been waiting for since last year.

PS: this long and well-written entry is dedicated most specially to dearest Gek who is always there for me – good or bad, I can always find her not more than 5 meters away from me ❤

#15: close my eyes

Hi everyone this space will be rather dead for quite sometime.

Till then, x

#14: is this all

So that was my first day of my last year in Riverside and apart from reuniting with all my 4/6 lovelies and catching a movie with the girls, the rest of the day was shit.

Let's start with morning. I didn't hit the snooze alarm as many times as I had predicted so just as I thought that THAT would set the day off well, I realized I was late for duty. I was supposed to be in school by 7am but I stepped out of the lift only at 7am SHARP.

I really think people around me should get used to me being late but that's one side of me that I hate too.

Anyway I managed to make it to school by 7.05am AND MY LEGS WERE ALMOST BREAKING like I overused the muscles or something. Then I started roaming about the school with a floor plan/layout of classrooms in my hand and let me just say this first: my duty was to guide the new kids to where their classes are but all of them looked like they were just taken out of prison or were kept in a very dark and secluded and deserted place that THEY DID NOT EVEN LOOK LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN.

Like seriously, their facial expressions were really of extreme cases:

Type A: "HELLO EVERYBODY I SHALL NOW DOMINATE THE SCHOOL WITH MY PRESENCE WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT."

Type B: "Um...uh...wher- oh no I'm s- AAAAAHHHHHH!"

Type C: "I think I look cool with my shirt buttoned all the way up and my socks pulled to just below my knee."

OK maybe I was exaggerating a little but some of them really looked like they belong to either of the types.

Then from 8am to 9.30am we just had boring talks from all the KP and I realized the VP particularly likes to walk along the Sec 4 classes. I mean shouldn't he be attending to the Sec 1 classes instead since the newbies being newbies are so fresh and have a trillion questions in their puny brain that's about to explode if they don't bombard anyone with it? I found it so hard to even turn around and talk to Jing. And the girl sitting beside me was a total disgust. TOTAL DISGUST.

Afterwards we went back to class and settled all the admin stuff and I am so glad to say after 2.5 years, I can finally rid the post of being a Class Chairperson. Not that I found being a Chairperson a burden but I'm quite ~sick~ of being one for another year so I found myself a new post which, to my friends, was a significant drop in grade, and that's being a Health Ambassador.

I don't even know why I volunteered myself to be that but I guess I just have to enjoy the life of eating healthily from now on.

After school, we (Tan Lim Jing) went to watch The Darkest Hour and it was really a faaaaaantastic show. Emile Hirsch is so hot and Max Minghella omgosh where in the world did they find such a cute guy *-*

Oh and from the way I see the Year Planner which was printed in our handbooks, 2012 seems to be a really boring year for us. And people around me just can't stop emphasizing that it's the 'O' Level year. Seriously, I still have a good 9+ months (WHICH IS THE PERIOD OF A PREGNANCY OK) before I officially start freaking out.

So right now, I will just start counting down to Graduation Day which is exactly 9 months and 7 days away.

#13: new beginning

Happy blessed New Year everyone! It's again a brand new year and everything has to start all over again and that's the thing I hate most whenever a new year begins. I don't really like January as well (I think it's the stupidest month of the year) because the Jan heat is always suffocating me to the brink of my head I feel like exploding. Besides that, I hate to see all my worksheets dated x/1/12. I mean that "1" seems so stupid and annoying.

Last night was truly enjoyable over at Gramma's place. Although my phone died on me at the very last few moments of 2011 (and the insanely congested network nationwide), but that aside, everything else was great. Like I bonded (I've been using this word too much lately) a lot with my cousins and damn most of them looked a heck lot more muscular than they were 13 months ago.

It was so fun talking to them about not everything but at least we did have a few common topics.

The whole fireworks thing at Causeway Point was just plain crap. It barely lasted for 5 minutes and they only shot the fireworks to the sky minutes AFTER 12am clocked in. And I didn't get to pull a popper like I always did previously and I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I'M AFRAID OF SPARKLERS. Spar-freaking-klers.

But who cares because I spent the very first second of 2012 with good people (except for some) :')

After everything was packed, my dad drove us home and we showered and my sister and me had some sisterly bonding from 2am+ to 5am WHICH WAS A FANTASTIC WAY TO KICK START MY 2012 HOLY MACARONI

Then this morning when I woke up the whole world was spinning around me. Actually it was just me and my inner brain doing the clumsy tricks.

The evil vicious study cycle is about to start soon in approx. 1 day x

Update:

I'm left with 3 more Physics papers and a whole stack of other shits but I still feel very accomplished tonight whoopeee